"In time, the teacher of God seems to begin to change his mind about the world with a single decision, and then learns more and more about the new direction as he teaches it." ~ ACIM Teachers Manual
My Story
In 2004 I went to York University and took a minor in Psychology and graduated with Honors from English Literature. I thought of it as my way to become a teacher. I loved children. I wanted to help them learn and thrive, but there was something about being a school-age Teacher in the current school board that I did NOT want to do. I knew there needed to be a change in the way school was offered, but I didn't know how to go about addressing all that. All I knew was that I was confused about life and who I was and what I was here for.
In my 5th and final year of University, my school went on strike for 16 weeks , giving me lots of time to contemplate, think and make some new decisions. I got to the point where I was honest enough to look at myself and my life and no longer pretend "everything was okay". I felt bored, tired, overweight and I continually abused my body through excessive over eating, over exercise, degrading thoughts about myself and tumultuous relationships. Needless to say, I was not happy and finally admitted it to myself.
One evening, after overeating on lots of junk food (which I did every night, as I could not control myself) and reading Elizabeth Gilbert's 'Eat Pray Love', I read the part where Liz was on the bathroom floor crying and calling to God and God answered her. It really really spoke to me. I put the book down for a moment, and began to feel a very similar pull to call out to God. I thought: "I need help" as she did, and "If she was answered, so can I be."
Prior to this point I did not know God. I was introduced to Jesus through Wee Sing Bible Songs from my mom as a kid, but we never really prayed to God or went to church and we were definitely not religious. The idea of Jesus or God frightened me actually. This evening on my bedroom floor, was the first time I opened to a power that was greater than myself.
I felt this surge within me pulling me out of the bed, sifting and sliding through candy and chocolate wrappers and landing on the bedroom floor. I felt as if I was filling a void within me with all this food I was stuffing myself with. My way to "solve my problems' was NOT working. I was still in pain and felt so guilty for all the pain I was causing myself with over eating. I felt I had no other option but to ask for help, and so I closed my eyes and called out to God, voicing out-loud:"What void I am trying to fill!!!??" . I was still, I listened, and what I heard was: "You're afraid of failing". This voice, so powerful and stern, yet kind, gentle and familiar- made my ears perk and heart open. I continued the dialogue, "Afraid of failing at what?" I heard the whisper, "Everything". This list poured forth in my mind, unveiling every facet of my life that I had let be governed by fear- my parent's opinions, my lousy job, my screwed up relationships, my overweight body, my lack of purpose.....I saw my fear at failing at all of this; any future job or future anything- my life of the past and my made up present all seemed to be "failing" right before my eyes. I was getting what I was asking for. I was asking for fear and was afraid of everything, and guess what, I received the results of that fear, perfectly.
I saw in that moment, that I was responsible for everything in my life.
I knew that I could not blame anyone for my pain or upset or sabotage anymore. I had to let my parents, my siblings, my bad boyfriends off the hook....I had to see that I was totally responsible for all of my suffering and realized that I was no longer was willing to make that choice anymore. In my responsibility, I chose to live life differently, and to listen to a different voice!
For some reason, in that moment, I knew I was not to blame either. I was responsible, and being responsible means I can choose differently. I was ready for a new choice (even if I did not know the whole of it yet) and I screamed "yes, yes yes" as a declaration of my new choice, and allowed my tears to flow, as I affirmed love's reality and affirmed my new choice to follow Love not fear.
In my 5th and final year of University, my school went on strike for 16 weeks , giving me lots of time to contemplate, think and make some new decisions. I got to the point where I was honest enough to look at myself and my life and no longer pretend "everything was okay". I felt bored, tired, overweight and I continually abused my body through excessive over eating, over exercise, degrading thoughts about myself and tumultuous relationships. Needless to say, I was not happy and finally admitted it to myself.
One evening, after overeating on lots of junk food (which I did every night, as I could not control myself) and reading Elizabeth Gilbert's 'Eat Pray Love', I read the part where Liz was on the bathroom floor crying and calling to God and God answered her. It really really spoke to me. I put the book down for a moment, and began to feel a very similar pull to call out to God. I thought: "I need help" as she did, and "If she was answered, so can I be."
Prior to this point I did not know God. I was introduced to Jesus through Wee Sing Bible Songs from my mom as a kid, but we never really prayed to God or went to church and we were definitely not religious. The idea of Jesus or God frightened me actually. This evening on my bedroom floor, was the first time I opened to a power that was greater than myself.
I felt this surge within me pulling me out of the bed, sifting and sliding through candy and chocolate wrappers and landing on the bedroom floor. I felt as if I was filling a void within me with all this food I was stuffing myself with. My way to "solve my problems' was NOT working. I was still in pain and felt so guilty for all the pain I was causing myself with over eating. I felt I had no other option but to ask for help, and so I closed my eyes and called out to God, voicing out-loud:"What void I am trying to fill!!!??" . I was still, I listened, and what I heard was: "You're afraid of failing". This voice, so powerful and stern, yet kind, gentle and familiar- made my ears perk and heart open. I continued the dialogue, "Afraid of failing at what?" I heard the whisper, "Everything". This list poured forth in my mind, unveiling every facet of my life that I had let be governed by fear- my parent's opinions, my lousy job, my screwed up relationships, my overweight body, my lack of purpose.....I saw my fear at failing at all of this; any future job or future anything- my life of the past and my made up present all seemed to be "failing" right before my eyes. I was getting what I was asking for. I was asking for fear and was afraid of everything, and guess what, I received the results of that fear, perfectly.
I saw in that moment, that I was responsible for everything in my life.
I knew that I could not blame anyone for my pain or upset or sabotage anymore. I had to let my parents, my siblings, my bad boyfriends off the hook....I had to see that I was totally responsible for all of my suffering and realized that I was no longer was willing to make that choice anymore. In my responsibility, I chose to live life differently, and to listen to a different voice!
For some reason, in that moment, I knew I was not to blame either. I was responsible, and being responsible means I can choose differently. I was ready for a new choice (even if I did not know the whole of it yet) and I screamed "yes, yes yes" as a declaration of my new choice, and allowed my tears to flow, as I affirmed love's reality and affirmed my new choice to follow Love not fear.
"A shift had happened and I welcomed it in trust and in faith that my life will be made brand new. "
I got back up from the ground, picked up my journal that was hardly written in and wrote, "God means something to me.". That was all I could say at that time, for I did not know the extent of what I had experienced. But at least now God was something, instead of nothing.
I was still unsure as to what to do or what the next steps were... but I trusted it and was at peace.
Within 5 days, three people came into my experience who were Life Coaches. I learned through them and the conversations that we had, that that was what I was suppose to do, I was suppose to open my own business and become a Life Coach. So I held this idea in my mind as to what I was going to pursue after I officially graduated.
SO life lived on and York University resumed classes. One of the courses I chose as an elective was an online marketing course. This was a new direction for me, so it was very random that I took this course, although not so random considering that I was wanting to open a healing practice. In this marketing course we were put together in groups and had to work online to communicate. There ended up being a dispute between two members of my team and I offered ways of resolving their dispute and they both backed down from their position and focused on a resolution. Another schoolmate was watching and wrote me an email asking me if I was becoming a lawyer because I was so good with words and very helpful through reason. I told him no, but I wanted to become a Life Coach. He further communicated that he was in that line of business too and that we should get together. Of course we did, and he ended up being what I called at the time my "spiritual guru" and helped me learn the power of my mind, the power of intention, and the power of energy. Needless to say, it was a powerful time in my life and I accelerated greatly in my awakening. He really pushed me in the direction of hypnosis, stressing the importance of understanding our subconscious mind. I did not understand why then, but realize now, that it was the most helpful and perfect thing for me to do at that time. I needed to go inwards first, but at the same time, learn to trust myself so that I can be a vessel of healing and helpfulness for others.
I passed the Hypnosis course with great joy and shortly after received my NLP (neuro-linguistics programming), Reiki Level 1, and Angel Communications. All of which became apart of my practice that I called LEEP Life Coaching and ran for 3 years. Love yourself, Enlightenment, Empowerment, Positivity with the slogan "I will help you to grow LEEPS and bounds." I thought it was cute.... and true. :)
Over the course of these years I spent just as much time within my mind as I did helping assist others through their own healing. It was perfect and absolutely complementary to my learning and teaching experience. This was my only focus, my only job, and my only purpose.
I continued to see the results of my thoughts in my life and I was experiencing perfect joy, effortless manifesting, and powerful relationships. My body continued to become increasingly healthier and I continued to become increasingly happier. Everything I asked for came into my experience. It was undeniable to me that this was an ASK and RECEIVE universe!!
I began to ask for grander ideas, such as a trip to Hawaii, so that I could put on workshops and help more people. Within a week, a lady I did not know at the time, messaged me asking if I was willing to come to Maui and put on a workshop with her. Of course I said yes!! I knew the Universe brought me this gift and I could not refuse! Through this experience I learned that whatever you ask for you WILL receive and will always be COMPLETELY provided for. I became prosperous, because I was following a plan and a purpose that was greater than myself alone. I was self-less, yet more filled with my SELF than ever before. I left every decision I needed to make, up to inspiration and guidance as to what the next step was and where I was to go next. I was always given an answer and direction that resonated with my heart, always.
I left for Hawaii within a month of sending my prayer out to the Universe. I arrived, and it seemed that my powerful mind was amplified even more as I experienced continual instant manifestations. One particular day was over the top transformative for me. It was on Oct 10, 2010~ 10-10-10 ~ and we were on the beach of Maui, partaking in a global call of healing around the world. This was new friend's, bi-weekly experience, and my first. We were desiring clarity of the events during this triple number day, and a lady who channels Yeshwa (Jesus) came on the call. This woman was the vessel of the message that I needed to receive that day from our brother Jesus. As soon as she opened to Jesus's answer, I felt as if I melted into His presence and my heart opened to receive. He shared with us that those on the call are the anchors of Love and Light on this planet. We are here with the gifts of remembering and He instructed us lovingly that we can listen to Him within and He will guide us always. We were told that we were loved, deeply loved. I cried tears of gratitude and acceptance for hours on the beach, listening to his words echo in my own heart and mind, before we needed shade. We continued to contemplate and rejoice in the afternoons miraculous message. I was so grateful for this experience. I finally opened my heart and welcomed a relationship with Jesus.
Upon arriving home, I declared to the Universe, God, Jesus.... that I was ready for my life partner where I can be my most spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically healthy, so that we both can help save the world together. This prayer, was a true prayer of my heart and soul. I only wanted this, and so my prayer was answered perfectly about a week later, when my life and work partner Tom Glod came into my life. An added bonus, he brought the Sparkly Version of A Course in Miracles with him. It was my very first copy, of my very first ACIM book.
From here on out I diligently trained my mind to hold only thoughts that are loving, eternal, and all inclusive. I continued to release any remaining self doubt, guilt, fantasies, frustrations and habits that I was creating and carrying. I realized that anything that was not love was not me, and I asked for correction immediately. So I was vigilant for love(still am), and gave everything else up to my inner teacher for correction and reinterpretation.
I began to see the signs that I had to let go of my practice LEEP Life-Coaching and to create a new platform to communicate, that was not centered around me the "Life Coach". I could no longer call myself a Life-Coach or identify with my body as being "me", for I knew myself to be a limitless Soul. I also realized that it was not "I" that was the healer... but the Holy Spirit in my mind who healed us both together. So now my practice as I made it was obsolete, for healing was not of me, but through me. And I could no longer charge money from those who were in need of help. I wanted ONLY to give.
I wanted to continue to share and give my gifts to the world in every way, so I was prompted to have a more inclusive name for my practice and that's when it became 'Miracles of Mind'.
Which is still what my blog is called to this day.
I was still unsure as to what to do or what the next steps were... but I trusted it and was at peace.
Within 5 days, three people came into my experience who were Life Coaches. I learned through them and the conversations that we had, that that was what I was suppose to do, I was suppose to open my own business and become a Life Coach. So I held this idea in my mind as to what I was going to pursue after I officially graduated.
SO life lived on and York University resumed classes. One of the courses I chose as an elective was an online marketing course. This was a new direction for me, so it was very random that I took this course, although not so random considering that I was wanting to open a healing practice. In this marketing course we were put together in groups and had to work online to communicate. There ended up being a dispute between two members of my team and I offered ways of resolving their dispute and they both backed down from their position and focused on a resolution. Another schoolmate was watching and wrote me an email asking me if I was becoming a lawyer because I was so good with words and very helpful through reason. I told him no, but I wanted to become a Life Coach. He further communicated that he was in that line of business too and that we should get together. Of course we did, and he ended up being what I called at the time my "spiritual guru" and helped me learn the power of my mind, the power of intention, and the power of energy. Needless to say, it was a powerful time in my life and I accelerated greatly in my awakening. He really pushed me in the direction of hypnosis, stressing the importance of understanding our subconscious mind. I did not understand why then, but realize now, that it was the most helpful and perfect thing for me to do at that time. I needed to go inwards first, but at the same time, learn to trust myself so that I can be a vessel of healing and helpfulness for others.
I passed the Hypnosis course with great joy and shortly after received my NLP (neuro-linguistics programming), Reiki Level 1, and Angel Communications. All of which became apart of my practice that I called LEEP Life Coaching and ran for 3 years. Love yourself, Enlightenment, Empowerment, Positivity with the slogan "I will help you to grow LEEPS and bounds." I thought it was cute.... and true. :)
Over the course of these years I spent just as much time within my mind as I did helping assist others through their own healing. It was perfect and absolutely complementary to my learning and teaching experience. This was my only focus, my only job, and my only purpose.
I continued to see the results of my thoughts in my life and I was experiencing perfect joy, effortless manifesting, and powerful relationships. My body continued to become increasingly healthier and I continued to become increasingly happier. Everything I asked for came into my experience. It was undeniable to me that this was an ASK and RECEIVE universe!!
I began to ask for grander ideas, such as a trip to Hawaii, so that I could put on workshops and help more people. Within a week, a lady I did not know at the time, messaged me asking if I was willing to come to Maui and put on a workshop with her. Of course I said yes!! I knew the Universe brought me this gift and I could not refuse! Through this experience I learned that whatever you ask for you WILL receive and will always be COMPLETELY provided for. I became prosperous, because I was following a plan and a purpose that was greater than myself alone. I was self-less, yet more filled with my SELF than ever before. I left every decision I needed to make, up to inspiration and guidance as to what the next step was and where I was to go next. I was always given an answer and direction that resonated with my heart, always.
I left for Hawaii within a month of sending my prayer out to the Universe. I arrived, and it seemed that my powerful mind was amplified even more as I experienced continual instant manifestations. One particular day was over the top transformative for me. It was on Oct 10, 2010~ 10-10-10 ~ and we were on the beach of Maui, partaking in a global call of healing around the world. This was new friend's, bi-weekly experience, and my first. We were desiring clarity of the events during this triple number day, and a lady who channels Yeshwa (Jesus) came on the call. This woman was the vessel of the message that I needed to receive that day from our brother Jesus. As soon as she opened to Jesus's answer, I felt as if I melted into His presence and my heart opened to receive. He shared with us that those on the call are the anchors of Love and Light on this planet. We are here with the gifts of remembering and He instructed us lovingly that we can listen to Him within and He will guide us always. We were told that we were loved, deeply loved. I cried tears of gratitude and acceptance for hours on the beach, listening to his words echo in my own heart and mind, before we needed shade. We continued to contemplate and rejoice in the afternoons miraculous message. I was so grateful for this experience. I finally opened my heart and welcomed a relationship with Jesus.
Upon arriving home, I declared to the Universe, God, Jesus.... that I was ready for my life partner where I can be my most spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically healthy, so that we both can help save the world together. This prayer, was a true prayer of my heart and soul. I only wanted this, and so my prayer was answered perfectly about a week later, when my life and work partner Tom Glod came into my life. An added bonus, he brought the Sparkly Version of A Course in Miracles with him. It was my very first copy, of my very first ACIM book.
From here on out I diligently trained my mind to hold only thoughts that are loving, eternal, and all inclusive. I continued to release any remaining self doubt, guilt, fantasies, frustrations and habits that I was creating and carrying. I realized that anything that was not love was not me, and I asked for correction immediately. So I was vigilant for love(still am), and gave everything else up to my inner teacher for correction and reinterpretation.
I began to see the signs that I had to let go of my practice LEEP Life-Coaching and to create a new platform to communicate, that was not centered around me the "Life Coach". I could no longer call myself a Life-Coach or identify with my body as being "me", for I knew myself to be a limitless Soul. I also realized that it was not "I" that was the healer... but the Holy Spirit in my mind who healed us both together. So now my practice as I made it was obsolete, for healing was not of me, but through me. And I could no longer charge money from those who were in need of help. I wanted ONLY to give.
I wanted to continue to share and give my gifts to the world in every way, so I was prompted to have a more inclusive name for my practice and that's when it became 'Miracles of Mind'.
Which is still what my blog is called to this day.
"You free the past from what you thought before.
You free the future from all ancient thoughts of seeking what you do not want to find.
The present now remains the only time.
Here in the present is the world set free."
~ A Course in Miracles: Lesson 132
The beginnings of my Life's Work
There was one evening in particular that was a catalyst for my life's work/purpose to begin. It was a potluck celebration at my place on the winter solstice of December 21st 2010. Five of us got together to share ideas, inspirations and good food. During our time together, we had made some jokes about our bro Jesus and how much we all loved him. We had an empty chair and invited him into our conversation. We were all sitting in a circle bouncing around ideas for a new world, and soon realized that we all shared in the same vision. We wanted to see a transformation happen within the educational system. We joined that day to not just talk about it doing something about it, but to actually do it. We had yet to realize the extent of what we said yes too. The energy was there, we knew something happened, but had no clue that it truly was a miracle that we said yes to that day. The next day Tom calls me and says okay lets begin, I got a domain name! Ha! It took me a moment to be like, oh my God, we are actually doing this. And I said "what is it?" He said "centerfortheone.com" I said "I Love it! Lets do this!". Since that moment, Tom and I were full speed ahead in bringing forward the "Center for the One", a system / school / community center to offer New Education.
Shortly after this experience I began to record videos on my Miracles of Mind Youtube channel. I often recorded a video every day to document my experiences in training my mind and following my purpose. I had no idea who was watching. I tried not to think about that. I just really wanted to share what was on my heart and mind and to connect with any one who recognized what I was experiencing and seeing, so we could share in it together.
In 2011 I was in meditation when I heard loud and clear "record youtube videos of a course in miracles". I thought "what! No I don't want too" but I saw that I had too, even though I was uncomfortable with the idea. So right away I began to make spontaneous videos reading from the Text and Workbook of A Course in Miracles. I also had the change to document our travels! As both Tom and I were travelling on Gods grace going where he would have us be, and we got to record alot of this journey through these videos.
On the January 1st 2013 I was asked by a few friends and followers of my videos, to record the daily Workbook Lessons. It wasn't until I woke up on the 1st of January to a deep knowing and nudge from Jesus asking me ever so gently to do His Course every day, on camera. I was then certain it was my part play and said definitely yes. I left the whole experience open as to how and when and for how long I would do the lessons. It turned out that completing the whole year was most helpful for everyone including myself. I read the workbook lessons online via youtube for 365 days so everyone could do the lessons along with me everyday. I loved it. I continued to document my life experiences with applying the lessons every day and sharing my ups and downs with the process. It was incredible; and literally brought so many blessings and beautiful amazing Souls into my life that I will forever be grateful for.
All the while our New Education Center continued to evolve, and from it came another project and then another, and then another. We realized the vision and our parts were alot bigger then we first thought. Now, 8 years after our original joining my part now includes being a Founder & President of a Service, at our Service and Technology company called MakeShyft R.D.A. We have many projects in our pipeline, but at this time we are focused on the launch of our first product - the U.M.P, a Universal Mediation Program. U.M.P is a communication platform and software mediator for Conflict Resolution & Prevention. (Read: story of U.M.P). We are launching U.M.P V1.0 in January 2017. We have come along way in the research, development and application of this product. It is a sincere blessing to know that we have created a tool to help people all over the world to resolve conflict and find peace.
We all have a creative spark within us, and can have fun together as we cooperate, inspire each other to create new tools and ways, that help to bring forward a "happy world". As we become happy, all the world can become happy along with us. When we let our selves be saved, all the world is saved because of us. We are all makers of the world, you see.... and if we change our minds about it, all the world must change accordingly. :)
Thank you for listening to my story of how I am where I am today. These are some main key points in my life experience, but at the same time, barely even skimming the surface of it all. I hope however that it inspires you to know, that you too, have a powerful inner guide to help you to heal your mind, accept who you are in truth, and fulfill your function here in JOY!
Love and Miracles to all the world!
p.s New Edition to My Story. .We have had a baby!!! and her name is Ella Joy :) She has only added to the joy and excitement in our days. Thank you Father. She is perfect!!! You can learn more about her in my latest blog on my new role as mother. -2015
p.p.s I have founded Whole & Healthy Kitchen. It is the ANSWER I have received to my errors with food/ eating. Once I healed in my relationship to food, I could not not give what I had learned and received to YOU! I have ensured that everything I do in the kitchen is for Love, for God and for bringing my family closer together, and closer to the health and happiness God Wills for us all!!! I now work full time here, offering courses and coaching founded in Holy Spirit Guidance. I am really grateful to help parents and souls who are awakening and want to live a more conscious healthy life!!! - 2020
" Learning is constant, and so vital in its power for change that a Son of God (Soul) can recognize his power in one instant, and change the world in the next. That is because, by changing HIS mind, he has changed the most powerful device that was ever created FOR change."
- A Course in Miracles T 7.5 - Healing & The Changelessness of Mind